I’m a runner. It started in high school. In 9th grade I took a tennis class taught by the cross country coach. He was desperate for girls on the team, at least that’s what I tell myself because otherwise I’m not really sure why he invited me to join.
So the summer after my freshman year of high school, I would run every now and then to prepare for cross country, which would start once I returned to high school in the fall. I was pretty stoked; by the end of the summer I could do a mile pretty quickly without stopping. Imagine my surprise when I showed up to the first day of practice and we had a one mile warm-up. Oops. The first ten minutes of practice had been my entire workout over the summer.
I really liked my coach and one of my best friends was on the team with me (EinsGlick for life), and the idea of quitting never really crossed my mind. I fell in love with running, and cross country is definitely one of my favorite memories of high school.
I don’t know if it was the running or if it would have happened anyway, but I started having trouble with my left knee during my junior and senior years of high school. Yes, my injuries go way back, before falling beds and ugly broken foot boots. During my last season I was our team’s manager because I wasn’t able to run full-time like I wanted to. I practiced with the team as much as I could, I rode a bike on longer runs, and I helped out at meets because my knee wouldn’t let me compete.
My kneecap is rotated and out of alignment. After a series of knee braces, physical therapy, and electrical stimulation (this really great thing where it feels like fire ants are eating your knee) I still couldn’t run even short distances without severe pain. Last week I visited an orthopedic doctor once again just to check up on everything. There’s still nothing they can do, but he gave me some anti-inflammatory lotion to use after my run, which makes my knee tingly. Sure.
I went for a run tonight, which bugs the crap out of my dad. He thinks I’m making it worse; I think there’s nothing to make it better so why not run? Which brings me back to my original thought: I’m a runner. I do it voluntarily and I enjoy it. I think I enjoy it because running is probably 90% mental.
Tonight as I jogged through my neighborhood, I kept telling myself “keep going until you pass that house” or “don’t slow to a walk until this Jonas Brother song is over” and I did it! Not to mention that I run better when I’m not by myself, when I have Jeff running 15 feet in front of me as I pant, “I’m walking – I can’t – I’m gonna walk now,” and he laughs, “nope, you can keep going.”
There’s something incredible about putting one foot in front of the other, over and over, and pushing yourself to the limit. Running is what I do when I’m sad, happy, stressed, tired, energized or bored. It’s my thing. I may not be in the same shape that I was in high school (indian runs? no thanks) but has the same effect on me now that it did back then. Slip on some sneakers, blast some boy bands, and give it a shot.